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i think today i almost get myself "killed" physically and mentally. the fever from the day before haven't even recovered T.T but cant afford to miss the fire fighting course. very expensive eh. 170 plus for one lesson T.T some more just basic only. so woke up in the morning at 5 plus T.T just simply on waking up killed 30% of me T.T went to jp too early T.T reach there around 7, when we are suppose to meet at 7 15. oh btw! i was wearing a hoodie and mask from everland. so i think the reason of everyone staring must be.... after everyone arrived, took 172 to the civil defence place. seriously!! today i look like some weak ass la! i cant even carry somethings properly. T.T so embarrassed of myself. the worst part is carrying the cylinder and walk around. that killed the remaining parts of me that are still alive. went to play with hose ltr (: not play la. just like drills. went back for the presentation of certs (: im really super super grateful towards my classmates (': thanks for caring for me (': even though i know today i seriously one burden. hahaha. and the same goes for the trainers (: i really appreciated what they all did (: thanks alot guys!!!! ^^